You cannot chase after someone who's meant to run away.

----Jostein Gaarder, Sophie's World


And yes. Faith can move mountains but sometimes, it will take a lot of pushing. And sometimes, just sometimes, God won't let the mountain be moved because He has a better plan.

It's really sad how things turned out.

But hey. I wasn't the only one and certainly not the first one who went through this kind of grind. I hope the time will come that I'll no longer feel the pain of waking up in the morning knowing that things are different and will probably stay that way until I get over him. It will take time but I'll surely get over him.

There are tons of fish in the water, a singer once sang. So surely, I'll find someone new and hopefully, he's for forever.

But for now, I'll just let my tear glands do what they're supposed to do and drown myself with research and with friends.

I'll take a retreat soon.

Cheers to all the men and the women who went through what I'm going through but managed to stay alive and lived like they're meant to live.